The end of memories...
The end of missing you
The end of loving you
The end of me and you...

Is this the beginning of the end? A chapter of life that needs to be ended and close. It has created too much heartache, pain and complication.

A new chapter of life will begin now.

The Time Of My Life

I’ve been waiting for my dreams

To turn into something I could believe in

And looking for that Magic rainbow

On the horizon I couldn’t see it

Until I let go

Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn

Now I’m coming alive

Body and soul

And feelin’ my world start to turn

And I’ll taste every moment

And live it out loud I know this is the time,

This is the time

To be more than a name

Or a face in the crowd I know this is the time

This is the time of my life

Time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished

Into the air

Left me in pieces

But now I’m rising from the ashes

Finding my wings

And all that I needed Was there all along

Within my reach As close as the beat of my heart

So I’ll taste every moment

And live it out loud I know this is the time,

This is the time to be More than a name

Or a face in the crowd I know this is the time

This is the time of my life

Time of my life

And I’m out on the edge of forever

Ready to run I’m keeping my feet on the ground

My arms open wide My face to the sun

I’ll taste every moment

And live it out loud I know this is the time,

This is the time to be

More than a name

Or a face in the crowd I know this is the time

This is the time of my life

Time of my life

More than a name

Or a face in the crowd This is the time

This is the time of my life.

This is the time of my life

Feelings...are an abstract that some of time makes us loose control of ourselves.

Everything seems to be flowing and no longer a blockage in life. There is a past that I dare not turn back to look at. Life is best to let it auto run at times then controlling it when you are uncertain is hard. Control and getting it your way at times is so hard and brutal.
Release and let go for a while...then with peace you will find your way back on the track.

The bottom line to everything is as long as you are happy. No matter how a person perceived you as, you should be aware of who you are and what you are. There are people who make you feel lost, make you need to find yourself. But there are those too who makes you see everything seems certain and makes it from wrong to right. Making you to see that life is not all about suffering and misery after all. That will be the person I am awaiting for.

It is indeed a challenge but you need to know what it is....what it is that you want. Then you have a direction to move forward. At times, things are not as simple as you just want it to be but never drag yourself in that mud but pull yourself up and walk through it.
Walking away makes it relieve and another big step you have make to getting where you want.
Time will make you strong and to know all the right things to do and say. As long as you are real and happy, any other thing doesn't matter anymore.


He who love you dearly, will cry when you cry,
Will be hurt when you are hurt,
Darkness will turn to light
That's when you laugh and he would laugh
When you love and he would love you back

Boston

In the light of the sun
Is there anyone
Oh it has begun
Oh dear you look so lost
Eyes are red
And tears are shed

The world you must have crossed
You said You don't know me
And you don't even care
Oh yeah
She said you don't know me
And you don't wear my chains
Oh yeahYeah

Essential yet appealed
Carry all your thoughts
Across an open field
When flowers gaze at you
They're not the only ones
Who cry when they see you

You saidYou don't know me
And you don't even care
Oh yeah
She said you don't know me
And you don't wear my chains

Oh yeahShe said I think
I'll go to Boston
Think I'll start a new life
I think I'll start it over
Where no one knows my name
I'll get out of California
I'm tired of the weather
Think I'll get a lover
And fly him out to Spain
I think I'll go to Boston
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town
To leave this all behind
I think I need a sunrise
I'm tired of a sunset
I hear it's nice in the summer
Some snow would be nice

Oh yeah Boston
No one knows my name
Yeah No one knows my name
No one knows my name

Yeah Boston
No one knows my name

Teardrops On My Guitar

Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything
that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

Chorus
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

Repeat Chorus
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

Moving on...

Sleeping beauty has awoken from the bitter sweet dream.

I was wrong to have the very thought and hope that we can still be together. Things have changed, moments have changed and people move on. The guy that once loves me has changed and moves on. It will remain as the bitter sweet memories that I once have. The fairy tale has ended when the words was uttered from his mouth to you that "you need to move on cause I have move on". Welcome back to the reality to start picking up your pace and start your path with the whole new beginning.

It felt as though one part of the person has die off and the world that you once dream with him has shattered like glass to the ground. It has been hard fall to the dirt ground and we should have self dignity to pull our self up and not let people look down on you anymore.

It is a long and winding road in front but brave yourself through and the day of glory will soon be reflecting in your heart and soul.


"It Ends Tonight"
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.

And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathin
gMy mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.

A weight is liftedOn this evening
I give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight, It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight, It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,It ends When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fightIt ends tonight,It ends tonight.

TonightInsight When darkness turns to light,It ends tonight

Nightmare Reflecting Reality

This morning I woke up to a nightmare which was so real and brutal to my heart.
It all started with me and my friend taking a taxi to a hilltop Japanese restaurant. As I arrived, I was in the urge to look for a washroom. The taxi driver was kind enough to tell me that the washroom is quite a distance and can send me over. My friend went into the restaurant and I accepted the ride to the washroom.

As we are going up and up the hill, I was feeling kind of weird why the Loo is so far away. As I start to realize that it is not right, I decided to get myself off the ride. The taxi driver notices my action and immediately ran after me. He was trying to rape me. I manage to free myself as I run for my life. At that moment, I call up to the one I know he would be there to care for me. He picked up the first time and he was mumbling and wasn't sure what I was saying. The reception was bad and the line got cut off. I tried to call again...it was not able to be contactable as the phone is off. It was that very moment I felt I was no longer care of and is all up to me to save myself.

I managed to get myself home and my families were there for me. I am still as stubborn as ever so I picked up the phone to call and it didn't go thru at all. At that very moment, my heart just shattered is like a knife shaft in it and the door slap in front of my face. I cry myself out again and again...

I woke up by that time. I sat there for a while to think and even my dream is telling me he doesn't care anymore, why are you still so stubborn to hold on. I seriously need to get a life and stop this day dreaming. The dream was really so real as if it was a reality.